Ramblings

Not sure if this is a blog or not..... not sure if I am doing this right or not, really don't care if its done to everyone elses standards,,,, to me this is a way to keep everything down on paper..... so if I jump around please bare with me til I get this thing going the way I need it to go.....lol I'm a mawmaw not a writer. but hope to publish all of this in a little book one day and give this to each of them so when they are grown they will know my feelings in case I am not here,,,,, that way bits and pieces will fall back into place and help them to understand,,,,, things from my perception......of why I was so protective,,,of why I loved them so.....of why I made the decisions that I made,,,not because I had to but because they deserved someone to fight for them,,,, they deserved all of this families love,,,,,, that  they meant the world to me....that I would lay down my life for them and all my children and granchildren  and maybe mawmaw wasn't as crazy as we thought lol